Thursday, August 23, 2012
My first warning about last month should've been that I drew the Volcano: Volatility card.
Since then, I got confirmation that I have PCOS, we had a week where our A/C died and we ended up crashing at a friend's house, and I've been on two road trips (one good, one that started good and ended nightmarish.)
I've had to start medication, change my diet, and educate the heck of out myself.
But at the same time, I have answers to questions that have plagued me since I was nine, and now I have something I can do to fix it, or at least, mitigate it.
Ultimately though, the whole mess has left me feeling tender and exhausted. I have more questions than answers about the things that have happened to me around the last month or so, some of which will never be answered.
I've also learned who my real friends are, and that is a precious thing.
So what's my card for this month? Meadow: Vulnerability.
I love it... and hate it... when cards speak so honestly.
I'm also teaching a casual discussion course on magic that's meeting once a month and talking online about all sorts of topics. Our first getting together class was a discussion of the Earth Element. I pulled out almost all my stones (realized after they left just how many I forgot.) I think it went really well.
After everyone was gone and the only thing left to pick up was my monolithic rock collection, I built an altar to the Earth and simply sat with it for a while. I might take the time today to do it again, and include the stones I forgot last time. I'm very much looking forward to the next get-together.